Let me tell you about my life right now.
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I just moved and moving is ridiculously expensive. (Even if it is just across town.)
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I feel very unseen and unheard.
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The enemy is attacking full force.
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My bank account is the lowest it’s been in years!
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I almost ran out of gas on my way home (unable to get gas because of lack of funds).
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And, I just came out of fundraising meeting being told I very well could be let go because of my lack of fundraising.
All that to say, all my walls are crashing down. And I blame myself.
I distinctly remember praying, “Lord, make me weak so You can be strong.” I asked for this. I asked God to make me my weakest so He could move in His strength through me.
Why would I do that? Why would I pray THAT prayer? That’s all I’m asking myself now.
But honestly, I sit here now and glorify God. He really is strong.
I glorify Him because I have 5% of my fundraising even though I need at least 25% right now. (2 years ago when I started I didn’t even have that much!)
I glorify Him because I have a beautiful new house to live in.
I glorify Him because even though I’m in the double digits in my bank account, I haven’t over drafted.
I glorify Him because He is my truth.
I glorify Him because I know He is growing me in this season.
I glorify Him because I want to be more like Him. And, if that means I get torn down to my core I will stand tall through Him. My roots are deep and that’s what will prevail through storms.
So if you’re wondering what to do after reading this blog, first and foremost, glorify God! Then say a prayer for me (I could use a lot right now). And then, if you feel lead, I’d love to keep my job. Consider supporting me by clicking the “Donate!” link on the left.
