He and I
A few nights ago I had a dream. It’s been awhile since I’ve had a dream that I remember, so I was thrown off a little. But the dream itself is what threw me off the most!
A man I loved proposed to me.
That’s the simple story. It wasn’t a man I knew or have even seen before. (I could visibly see the man in my dream.) I felt love. I was in love. I have never in my life been in love or felt it the way I did in my dream.
The hardest part was waking up. I felt like I had broken up with someone. I have no clue what heartbreak really feels like though.
It’s been super hard to figure this out let alone explain it to others.
But then the Lord spoke into it.
He was the man in my dream. He pursued me and proposed to me. I was in love with Him.
The worst realization was the waking up break up feeling. That’s how He feels now. Our relationship isn’t great, or even good for that matter. His heart is breaking for me.
Ouch.
This has shaken me to my core. But, my longing for love is even stronger than before.
Like every little girl, I grew up dreaming of my wedding day. I still do. But, here I sit, a 27 year old woman who has never had a boyfriend, never been kissed, and never been pursued.
But, the Lord kept speaking to me through this dream.
Someday love will come. It will happen in His timing. I’ve been spoiled by the best Man out there. There are big shoes to wear – not fill. No one could fill His shoes. I’m madly in love with the Lord and that’s a feeling I never really knew before. He pursues me. He gives me gifts. He calls me beautiful and worthy.
I hate that I’m writing about love too as it always seems so cliche to me.
But, again, the Lord spoke.
This is the best love story I’ll ever know – He and I.
